I’m an Indian kid doing his undergraduate course in English Literature. Most people don’t know this but in India, the number of kids trying to get into Medicine and Engineering is insanely high. The competition is so high, there are literally lakhs of unemployed engineers. It is in the midst of all this that I decided to study English. When I tell people that I am studying English at college, they are mostly extremely unimpressed. And I can’t blame them, IITs and Medical Colleges rule India. I mean it does hurt sometimes. I mean, I did get into one of the best universities in India and I love what I do. I love it so much that I would rather be at college than enjoy a holiday. I would never be at such a great place in life if I had done what everyone else was doing. A lot of people go through life doing what they don’t love. Instead of their work life nourishing their personal life, it sabotages it.
A few days ago, I made a small track and wrote a small poem (though it’s not a proper poem) to articulate how hard it is to go out and ‘do your own thing’. I hope you enjoy it.
Th track is called ‘Leg-Shoe’ and I’ll share the Instagram link to the track here. You can also listen to it at my YouTube channel at Stef Guitar Geek but there’s something wrong with audio at some parts.
Here’s the poem. I don’t have a title yet. So feel free to suggest one. 🙂
I feel burnt out. Utterly inexistent
My legs have grown out of the shoes that i have come to love
I find myself locked into a room full of old worn out shoes
And I must choose. For the world is not for a man with no shoes.
But I can’t. They stink and they are revolting to the eye.
They are torn, bleeding leather, but they are warm
They are warm because they are worn.
Everyone wears them. They wear ’em till they die.
Some never even take ’em off.
They go to bed in them. They bathe in them, some even make love while still in them
They are definitely not for me. My toes want to feel a virgin pair.
So they can in time rest in a pair of their own.
A pair that has formed into the shape of my feet.
Not in worn out shoes they can’t even feel.
But I am locked in. The keys do not even exist.
I do not know how to pick a lock that isn’t there.
So I examine the worn out shoes.
They are introduced in pairs, yet were undeniably incongruous.
But I persist. I put aside my pernicious eyes of judgement and peek into the intricacies of creation
I see where the needle cut into the leather. I look at the lines and curves.
I search for marks made by time but seldom come across one
But I come across in plenty , marks made by man.
Marks made in his haste to conquer, but sometimes because he lacked succour.
For years I’ve been dragging my shoeless feet, leading my eyes onto more worn out footwear.
My mission is to make my own worn out pair, a pair that Iooks like my feet.
I pick up the pieces of leather falling off the shelves, I bring them together with the threads that survived.
I sew them over my feet. Sometimes, I feel a prick or two but never in the same place.
Like the men with the worn out shoes whose toes feel pain again and again.
I really hope this inspires you and encourages you to go out there and do what you love to do. God has a plan for all of us. So be brave!
And as always, have a blast just existing!