White softness, submissive and complying, sits before me with its back against the easel and asks me, “Do you see me?”
“Huh?”, I ask, my eyes returning to focus on the perfect edges of the paper.
“Do you see me?”, it asks again, quieter this time. Much quieter.
“No”, I say and run my index finger over my eyebrow.
How could I? I’m an artist after all. I’m supposed to see things on the paper. The paper alone means nothing to me. It hides behind colour in near perfect submission. It lays no demands for the focus of a trained eye or the sweet caress of a surrendering hand. It wears whatever I give it and flaunts it in absolute stillness. Why would I ever see it?
But today, I’m forced to. Today, I must surrender my title and see nothing. I must do so because the only way to open a closed door is to forget there is a key. At least that’s how it works at the cul-de-sac inside my brain I call ‘creative space’.
And today the door is closed.
And I know it because I can hear it. Yes, I hear it when graphite touches paper. I hear it and I know that the door’s closed.
You see, there’s music in the air and on paper when the door’s open. A swish here and a swish there. They’re all expressions of the past, a reproduction of decisions made seconds ago. An experienced hand will handle the temporal separation with fidelity and resolute organisation. What you hear then is music. It rises and falls, bubbles up and explodes, and stomps with grace at a full stop.
But today, I don’t hear it. What I hear today is graphite choking on paper like a cat choking up a furball. My hand is moving over the paper like a drunk man at 5 a.m. on the subway. There is no fidelity, no organisation. My mind has nothing to say to my hands and I’ve lost all control. I turn the room upside down looking for the key. I must get out. If I don’t, I will kill me.
It is in this quiet desperation on a Monday evening that I find myself in the company of a perfect sheet of paper. It is offering me a way out. A way to convince myself that there is no key. A cheat code that will connect me to reality and unlock potential. So I cave in.
I frame the blank sheet of paper and I hang it on the wall.
I tell others I did it because art should never make us blind, even to paper.
This piece is part of a series called ‘Mumbo is Jumbo’, where I talk about weird concepts and ideas that I have. In this short piece, I intend to highlight how art lies in the reason why you do something and not just in what you do. I also believe that we sometimes experience creative blocks because we forget this. The fact that I can get away with calling a sheet of paper art has to be good enough evidence. I didn’t even make it. I just came up with a reason to call it art and identified the reason as art in itself. You can too.
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I CAN REMEMBER BEING AN INTUITIVE PAINTER. BUT MY CANVAS PANELS NEVER SPOKE TO ME! 😀
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Thank you so much!! Honoured
Wonderful post, these are some very interesting ideas. 😀
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Thank you 🙂